Girl, there's so many things i wanna tell you when i don't get to see you, But my mind just goes blank when i'm with you, all i know was, WOW, i've finally got time to spend with you. So this is what i've always wanted to tell you when i'm not with you, i miss you, every single second when i don't get to see you. I think of you even right after we just met, the moment we part i think of you. Hard to communicate with you though, The reasons are fuckedup, but there's nothing i can do. I spend my time thinking bout you, all day long. You don't have to feel unfair for me, After all that we've been through. What i want you to know is, i love you no matter what. Its a matter of fact, that you're the one that keeps me smiling, the one that brightens my day. I just want to let you know that i love you, like i always do. Everything changes, But my love for you remains the same. Thats one cold hard fact. There will never be a day when i will take even one moment of your joy and sweetness for granted. I know what a gift you are, and i want you to know it too. I just love you.

Fuck life, Nothing's going good. Well maybe its just me. Fuck everything -'- I JUST MISS YOU ): What's worst is health isn't in a good state, thanks to the haze. Been coughing for weeks. Getting my results soon, don't expect any good grades. Sudden reminisce of events that happened last year while looking at some pictures, well i definitely miss year 2009. Looking back, i looked different from back then. In fact all of us looked different. Weather is not as good as before, so my advice to people out there, Drink more water and stay indoors. (: Goodbye.



You gave my life direction, a game that shows our love connection. I miss you ):

JILLCHNG, Tomorrow's the first ): And you're not around with me ): i love you. I know that you don't want me to wait for you any longer, maybe you just don't love me like you do already, But one thing i know, is my love for you will never change. I love you.

I'll do whatever it takes, to turn this around. I know what's at stake, i know that you're having a hard time, but baby believe me its only a matter of time, i'm really willing to go through whatever your going through, i don't mind how long it takes. Believe that i can change, i'll keep us together whatever it takes. I love you. Your friend told me that you're having a hell of a time and i really wish that i can be there by your side, No matter how tough it is going to be, i am willing to go through all the obstacles that are set, i really hope everything can be like how it used to be. Thinking about how loving we are in the past just makes me tear like some dog, pathetic i know. But i really mean what i said, I don't care how hard my life's gonna be after doing all these.

I've been treated like a stranger by you, Don't know what has got into you. I don't know what i did or said. I don't even know anything. Try to talk to you, And all i get was merely an irritated facial expression from you, You'd rather check out whether the bus is coming then talk to me. See you in school, and you're treating me like someone you don't know, Don't even dare talk or go close to you afraid that your friends might tell your mum about me doing so. Even after school, You just disappear so quickly i don't even have the chance to see or talk to you. Resorting to passing you messages through your friend. Wanted to call you so many times already, and the reason why i don't is cause i'm afraid if i call and someone who does'nt wants to know i am the one calling, picks up the call and boom i dead. I know i'm being pathetic, Have to contact you through your friend and so on, but what else can i do? Can you at least don't hide anything from me? Can you stop giving me your cold shoulder? Can you hear me out? Can you tell me how you're doing? Can you love me like how you used to? Can you stop acting as if you don't know me? Can you? I just want us to be like how we used to, Thinking about how we used to be in the past and looking at how we are now, it just sucks. I'm seriously not as happy as i seem to be. ): Putting up a false front to cover up the sadness, how cool. Try doing that, maybe you don't have to cause you're already happy. Everything you do, just utterly bring me down, each time i'm about to get up. Something else happens. Can't you talk to me about your matters? Can't we talk it out? Must it always be one sided? You always assume i'll be angry and worried after telling me things, but thats not true, Can you stop keeping everything to yourself, Would you come to me when you need a shoulder to cry on, Would you come to me everyday with that enthusiasm just to see my face? Would you tell me hey i miss you out of a sudden? Would you tell me hey i love you? I'm always the one being automotive, Just too many things happening at one go, Fuck life -'-

Labels: There's nothing we can't go through together, Just give me a little bit more time to prove it.

1st of april starts, Another month to mid year exams, and its our 8th month together baby, I love you.

I'm trying not to think about anything, But after knowing things i don't even want to know just makes it hard for me not to think D:

Baby, I'm not really good with words but, This is from deep down my heart, Don't know if you'll see this anyway, and its for you:
Don't tell me i'm too good for you because we're equally good for each other, I know sometimes things i do may tend to make you angry or whatever unnoticingly. But both of us are going through the same thing i'm sure. Because i tend to get pissed at you when you do certain things unknowingly too. I think of you all the time, I'm not sure if you feel the same way too. Whenever i'm alone, thoughts of you will just randomly hit me, Thinking what you're doing, everything about you in fact, keeps me running. I just want to slow down for awhile, maybe even stop time. Forget about our responsibilities and concentrate on our dreams. I want to look into your eyes again, just like the first time. To see all we were, as we are, and all that lies ahead of us. I want you to hold my hands with that simple touch, to make me feel alive again. I want to tell you how many times i find myself in awe of you, So proud of your place in the world, So touched by your place in my heart.

When i found you, i found all the happiness that life can offer and how wonderful it is to share heartfelt moments with someone i cannot imagine life without.
When i found you, i found strength in companionship and how necessary it is to be able to lean on someone in times of need. I found what it feels like to support someone's hope, to appreciate each other, and to trust in all the future holds.
When i found you, i found how special it is to accept a person for who they are and what they can bring to your life in expected and unexpected ways, I found the greatest gift that anyone can ever give out, it only comes from the heart, Cause when i found you, I found Love,
Babe, i just love you.

So many things have happened. Well, i'm certainly enjoying the march holiday though its only for a week. Heading to sentosa later in the noon. Don't think i'll enjoy it there, but did'nt want to spoil my friend's planning. So i'll just go there and enjoy myself. Might update again later in the day. Goodbye.

Thoughts after thoughts..
Millions of words can't describe my feelings for you babe, i'll just put it in just a simple word. & Its from deep down my heart, This 3 words worth alot of sincerity from me, Baby i love you ♥ Happy 6th month anniversary :D

You know, I'm so glad that you are a part of my life. It is a privilege to know you and to share myself with you. I had heard of soulmates before, but i never know such a person could exist until i met you baby. Out of all the twist and turns our lives could have taken, and out of all the chances we might have missed, it seems like we were given a meant to be a moment to meet, to get to know one another, and to share a special togetherness.

I feel like you're my soulmate, and i want you to know that my world is reassured by you, my tomorrows need to you have you near, so many smiles depends on you, and my heart is so than that you're here, I want to make you a promise to do all i can to make your life as happy as you made mine. And to thank you for the little things you do that seem to go unnoticed. I want you to know that you are a constant reminder of how wonderful life can be, and that you make each of my days a little brighter. I want to tell you how beautiful you are, how amazing you make me feel, and how lucky i am that you chose to share your life with. I love you baby.

Oh well, here for another series of updates. Was basically busy for the whole week. Alright, i've really thought alot lately, after teacher's talked to us about the N level registration thingy, i had the thought of, wow? So fast, im taking N level this year and im still not studying enough. I've got this plan of balancing my time. Sounds corny but seriously its gonna help me alot if i can follow by it. Promised girlfriend that i would spend more time with her :) Benny bought singlets from thailand for us. Kinda big for me, but still wearable. Heh. i've nothing much to say, shall update some other time. YAY, i get to meet baby tomorrow :D

Despite any obstacles that come our way & all the many differences we've shared, i find myself loving you more with time. I love you when our moods vary & when our opinions go in opposite directions. I love you when our ideas aren't quite the same & our beliefs clash. I even love you when you're tired & grumpy. What i'm trying to say is i love you no matter what, even as we struggle to be our own individuals . It doesn't matter how different we may be, as i've spent more time by your side, i've learned i love you most of all because you're different from me, & can express it. I love you for what you believe, for the emotions you feel, & for the ideas that help me open my own mind to possibilities i haven't explored. What i'm saying is that, i love you.

Back for another series of updates. Alright, So basically these few days nothing special happened, Oh i just miss 2009, I don't really know why, So many changes in all of us suddenly. We used to slack in a whole, but now only left with a few. Life's tough, Oh and guess what? I'm in the process of quitting to smoke, Its all for baby. Well i've got baby's support! I can do it :D Okay, i've nothing much to say anyway. Shall update when i've got time. Bye :D


Loves B1 :D

After numerous pesters. I've decided to update. So basically, Life's pretty fucked up for me. Teacher's in school behaves like bastards. Racist teachers. Can't do much about it, im just a student. Getting framed/accused by teachers all the time. Its only the beginning of the year, and here i am suffering from all these shit. Fuck school for sure. As for my parents, well they sure are fucked up too. Ever since school reopened, everything just don't seem to go well for me. So im just gonna try to stay out from all things that would cause me problems. Meanwhile, i just know that,

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND :D

...Mia...

Happy new year & 4th monthsary baby !
2009 is so over ! Hello 2010 .
So basically , went out in the evening as planned . Enjoyed the last day of 2009 with usuals , and weird to say that 2009 is actually a hell of a year for all of us , because we've gotten even closer , we've seen each other change , we've have fun , we did almost everything together this year !
So yeah , went drinking after getting stuffs at downtown , walked to somewhere at 400 + , Slacked , Stoned . Junkai threw an egg at khaiteng , and it actually hits his ear , it went soo red .
Alright , im lazy to elaborate , anyway study hard for the upcoming year yeah !

A blink of eye , its our 4th month together . Hoping to continue this relationship without any troubles, hardship. i just want a simple relationship that can bring me love, joy & happiness .
In another way , i just love you . Destiny is not a matter of chance , its a matter of choice .
And my choice is you , My love .

Merry Christmas !
Nothing special actually , Celebrated with family at granny's house , had dinner , exchanged presents , then home . Went marcus house , with benny and xing . Slacked at his house . Went to underground 7-11 bought alcohol and off we went to drink . Back home at 10 plus . Once again merry christmas to all .

Hell of a day . Woke up at around 10 . Met benny and quack at 444 . Elton arrived shortly . Stoned awhile . Bought 'hoohoo' Then walked to 230 , Took 17 all the way down to bedok 401 , Slacked there , Junkai arrived . Stoned and 'hoohoo-ed' * Hilarious events in between * . Then khaiteng and shannan arrived . Waited for bobby . Chitchatted , walked to coffee shop at 506 , Stoned . Met up with girlfriend . Then back to coffeeshop .They bought tiger , split 3 cups and started drinking . Lol elton's ear went red ! Bused down to block 12 . Waited for ben to settle his taiji . After that , slacked there , Xing and khaiteng went up junkai's house , So we slacked downstairs . Bused back shannan's house . Then accompanied girlfriend for cab as she had to go . Then went back slacked at shannan's house . Played with her dog , and junkai was one hilarious dude . Dinner at 85 , Bedok inter to check out benny's birthday cake ! Trained home after that :D Total fun-ness today .

Here to update , So met benny and junkai at shanding , Bused down whitesands . Ate there , joel came then slacked awhile , Bought hoohoo , After that joel went off to meet alex . While we went to take mrt . Reached clark quay , walked around . Nothing special there , except for the toilet that sells condoms . Walked to singapore river , 'hoohoo-ed' Then sat there and stoned . Waited till 4 , accompany benny up for his model interview . While he was interviewing fooled around with junkai and xing . After his interview , trained back to whitesands . Stoned there with benny and xing , Chit chatted until some police came over and asked us some stupid questions . Then not long after , Home :D


BEN ! KAI PONGSTAR LAI TING LEH ! LOL !

What a day , So basically , Met benny , junkai , joel and marcus at shanding . Lunched together , Slacked at shanding , bought 'hoohoos' then stoned there . Bused down Whitesands , as benny had to collect his HSA letter . Jiawei came , Then went up singpost , Que was long , after that Went outside mac , Stoned there . Sent F to bus stop , Then khaiteng came . Waited for him to make his ezlink card . Nonsensed around . Then bused to pasir ris park . *hilarious events in between * Then wanted to throw marcus into the sea , but apparently we failed as he ran away before we could get him . Well laughed like some indian mofo the whole day , Stoned at elias cc , then marcus started crying tsk . Just a fall and he cries . Talked cock then not long after that , home :D Been so long since i've had this kind of FUN :)


imissyou D:

Happy 3rd Monthsary baby !
You are everything i always hoped for . There will never be a day when i will take even one moment of your joy and sweetness for granted . I know what a gift you are , and i want you to know it too . You have an amazing way of turning everyday into a time and place where the nicest feelings and the deepest gratitude all come together . And if it's okay with you .. I'd love to go on loving you forever,
Jill Chng ♥